The stars, the moon, they've all been blown out

Cosmic Love - Florence + The Machine

I miss them already. It has barely been a day, but I miss them. The last few days at work was the most fun I've had since I can remember. I didn't even mind staying past midnight in the store to finish up the reports, since it was fun hanging out with them. My previous job had felt me with such a pessimistic view of the workplace that I assumed I was only going to end up with mindless, life-sucking jobs thereafter. But no, if anything, just chatting with G and J helped me regain some confidence and hope in myself.
I feel like such a huge disappointment to them for not staying. The fact that they asked means a lot to me. Seeing them sad makes me feel sad too. I can't last remember being genuinely excited and looking forward to doing something, to seeing someone. All along I've felt happiest coping myself up in my room, where it was most peaceful. But that day, I couldn't help grinning like an idiot when I saw him there, already expecting me.
But that's how it is, isn't it? The sting of goodbyes will eventually fade away. People let go and move on, but it doesn't mean that anyone you meet is any less important.
Anyway, I still have my driving, university acceptance and Japan trip to settle. When I work, I end up neglecting everything else. I tell myself I have to think about what's truly essential in my life, rather than fleeting moments.